4 Days Down - Still Hanging in There

I've never been able to stick to a true diet for more than 5 minutes, honestly. So 4 days down and I'm feeling pretty proud of myself. I've already lost a ridiculous amount of weight so that has kept me motivated. Mind you I know that it was mostly water weight, it still feels great to see the scale going down. I haven't had even a morsel of something that isn't allowed (**Edit - I just found out that Fat Free Redi Whip is not on the allowed list - good thing I've only had a few squirts - and by accident so it doesn't count as cheating right??). Tonight I put a peanut in my mouth to taste the seasoning... then spit it out. How sad is that? Basically in a nutshell - I don't feel hungry anymore, but I just don't feel satisfied. Maybe that is the mental piece that will come along with time. I'm not craving anything absurd either - like a huge Chipotle Burrito. I just want some little cheese cubes and grapes. I think my body would go into shock if I had Doritos or something along those lines. I'm too excited about this right now to screw it up though.

Yesterday was a tough day. I felt really sluggish most of the day was was simply not interested in anything I was eating. I think that I actually didn't eat enough. I was in a pissy mood most of the day. After I did some "Just Dance" with Skylar, I felt great...full of energy. Then I finally got to sleep at 11:30, and crashed hard. I had some whacky dreams like my hair falling out and my husband secretly running an escort service while I'm at work (lol)! I woke up this morning feeling like a corpse but once I got moving, I felt much better.

I had a friend ask me to go out Friday night and as much as I want to go, I don't think this week is a week to be social at all. I'm not sure that I can get all dressed up, go to the pub and have a diet coke. Then again, it wouldn't be much different than being pregnant. Once I move onto the adding veggies and real food phase, I think I'll be up for it but right now. I just want to sit on my couch and eat my yogurt & jello.

I also went shopping today for veggies. I get to have them on Monday. I bought things that I don't even know what to do with yet - like Rutabaga. I think it's a turnip or swede. I usually blow past the veggie aisle only grabbing a few things and keep going. Today I spent a lot of time there - also a lot of time in the aisles staring at labels and in the meat section trying to find good steak (not much luck today). I'm really excited to make my salsa. I might miss the chips that I would dip in it but I'll eat it with chicken. Yay.

Overall, this has been a learning experience so far. I'm shocked at how much sugar/bad carbs effect my weight. Just seeing the science of it all in action is kind of fascinating.

As I type this, my husband is standing in the room next staring through the doorway snacking so he doesn't bother me. haha!

Ok that's enough for today.... thanks for reading. :)