TGIF!

It's been a long week for some reason - just busy at work and generally feeling run down. I've managed to get to bed at a decent hour for the most part so it must be the dieting that is taking it out of me. Monday will mark 4 weeks on the diet. I'm curious to the weight loss but will hold on and hope to be surprised. I hit the 12 pound mark on Tuesday or Wednesday which made me feel better since I shoveled a bunch of nuts into my mouth earlier in the week. I also popped 3 grapes into my mouth that Mia had on the kitchen table. Just didn't even realize I was eating them until they were down. It's funny that I feel guilt over a small piece of fruit!

I found out that I shouldn't be eating wheat germ but wheat bran instead. I don't even know where to find this. I thought I had the right thing. Hopefully it hasn't thrown a wrench into things. I also ate out for lunch and had coronation chicken salad. It's always hard when you eat out because you may have thought you made a wise decision on the menu, but unless you prepare it yourself, you don't know what kinds of oils or other naughty things have been used. I crossed my fingers and tried to tell myself that I made a good decision, especially when I could smell the amazing fries sitting on the plate next to and across from me. They looked and smelled amazing but you know what - I didn't have to have them. I was also faced with a birthday celebration for a coworker and turned down the ice-cream cake and snacked on...yogurt and jello. How exciting!

I'm getting creative in some ways, with dishes and trying to just keep it exciting but the yogurts, Sugar Free Jello and "dukan cupcakes" are getting old! I made a mock pancake the other night with sugar free syrup and was in heaven! I guess if anything, dieting has taught me not to take food for granted. When I get to the point where I can start adding carbs in, I'm going to be really excited about the little things - like strawberries!

I'm still focused though - and pleased that I've managed to do some form of exercise each day like I'm supposed to. Whether its Zumba or the treadmill, I've kept my tail moving. I know this will all be worth it in a few months when I will be able to put on a bathing suit with confidence when we go on holiday (wherever that may be - we're still deciding). I graduated to the "bathing suit with a skirt" this past summer - a very sobering moment! Not that I need to wear a G-String but purchasing that bathing suit was a scary step. I knew that I needed it, and I wasn't going to be that Mom wearing the inappropriate bathing suit for my size. There really isn't anything more awakening than bathing suit shopping. I don't know any woman, large or small who enjoys it!

Thanks for listening and keeping me focused and motivated!